June 16, 2008

Monday

Work is going pretty good -- the team that owns the modules realized they messed up on this family, fixed their registers, and when I incorporate their changes my stuff works too! Yay! That's the last four that need looking at... going green even as I write here.

Of course, one of eight channels fails on this OTHER family over HERE, but hey, I don't want to get bored.

Dunno yet about the other issues yet. Maybe they have crumpled before my might logic. Heh. HEHEHehhehehehhe. ::snerk:: Right.

On a different note, I've been have some existential moments again, and I really hate that.

I went in once for dental surgery (root canals) and got a full knockout for the trip. Edwin gone. Edwin back -- and the work was done. Nothing in between, nada, blank, black.

Certain head trauma, too, will cause complete loss of memory. It just doesn't make the trip from short term to long term.

Certain drugs, too, won't knock you out so much as wipe the experience from the slate.

Certain other drugs can be used to wipe memories during recall.

So, these existential moments always harken back to that loss of existence I experienced (in retrospect) during that surgery. Edwin gone. And not waking up. Gone gone gone.

Terrifying.

There is nothing, literally nothing, more terrifying. This is why we invented religion, after all, and why it sticks around so persistently in spite of evidence.

::sigh::

Posted by Edwin at June 16, 2008 12:41 PM
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