One way of living in the world, one goal at least for some, is to be fully alive in each moment, to be entirely aware and awake and noticing. Each tick of time steps past your notice, each action is conscious, each breath a choice that is made.
Another way is to numb yourself to the passing of time, to skip past the dull intervening moments to reach the goal on the horizon, the pot of gold.
As in all things, I am of both minds about this. I find the press and clutter of daily tasks and housecleaning tedium to be too jard sometimes, and at the same time to be so painfully uninteresting that I can't bear to fix the mess around me, so it is easier to simply skip through time and let it flow past unnoticed.
And still I want to make each moment count, to be useful, though I find this level of connection is only easily achieved by me when I am focusing on some creative task.
And when I am creating, I can squeeze some tedious effort out of me as a side effect sometimes.
It is still, though, as if I am waiting for something. There is something missing, something coming on the horizon, something that I want to skip ahead to great and bypass the many tedious seconds that lie between now and then.
What that something is I cannot say.
So I get this amusing struggle inside my own head.
Speaking of amusing, one project that I hope to invent and build in the next few months is a giant earthquake-based subwoofer. To couple multiple vibrating devices to the earth and drive them through amplifiers to make the earth sing in its basso profundo voice for me, the rumblings of god or the devil at my feet.
If you have any ideas or interesting in this project, let me know... I would welcome colloborators.